i can't do this.

Okay, it's 15th of October. Wish me luck, I only have 9 days. WHOA NINE DAYS?!

Oh, and btw... I slipped from the bathroom after taking a shower. Yeah, it seems stupid, however I know some people that died in a ridiculous bathroom incident. My entire left body is all aching now, I hit my head, and my right hand bled as though I was cutting myself. It's ridiculous. Thank God I didn't die.

You probably can't see the picture well, I can't bother to take pictures during concerts. That's just for people that are obsessed to show off their experiences with everyone. My very first policy in enjoying a gig: NEVER take pictures. But I took this, because Jakarta Concerts forum didn't expose this event in their forum.

Surreal, surreal, surreal.

That's all I can think about after attending the SHINee - I mean, Indonesian-Korean Friendship Sharing concert. 

I attended the concert secretively, my friend who is a hardcore Shawol lost in the competition. Arirang didnt sell the tickets, only the lucky ones were able to watch it. They have this system of drawing 400 winners (from a total of 5000 Shawol fans), and I guess I'm one of the lucky ones? Alhamdulillah. :'D (even if I'm not even a Shawol, lol)

You probably wouldn't be interested with what happened with the entire concert. So I'll skip to SHINee first. They saved them for last, duh~

The first song was Ring Ding Dong. Haha, reminded me of my final presentation for 2nd semester. I aced the subject all because I talked about kpop. Miracle...

Anyway, after singing Ring Ding Dong (they didn't lipsynch, and daaayumm the singing is surreal!) they moved to sing Lucifer. Sorry, but I just hate this song. I mean, yeah it's catchy. But it sounds evil and so unlike them. I was disappointed they sung Lucifer, but it was inevitable. Then they left the stage after introducing themselves. The female MC was half-hugged by Key. LOL, Shawols went NUTS. Then the boys left the stage, except Taemin; Taemin was in his own world (I think he's like... the contemporary Changmin DBSK?) and danced in the middle of the stage with the robot moves. Ahh, I know that I like Key the most, but Taemin is getting more and more adorable in my eyes!

The Shawols (again) went nuts, they shouted, "WE WANT MORE! WE WANT MORE!"

The MCs (the male was Korean and wore Batik, while the female was Indonesian and wore Hanbok) was closing the event. Then the male MC said, "You guys want more?"

"WE WANT MORE! WE WANT MORE!"

I subconsciously shouted, "I WANT SHINEE TO SING HELLO!!"

Then yess~ They did sing Hello. Hahah. It was really a giant cherry on top of a slice of cheesecake. <3 After singing Hello, balloons fell from above the stage. Some brushed the boys' hair. After the show ended, the Shawols stormed in front of the stage and brought as many balloons they can find. Maybe they were thinking, "HEY THIS RED BALLOON TOUCHED MINHO'S HAIR! OMG!"

This was my very first kpop concert. Amazing. I went a bit sad and sulky when the show ended because once the place was lit, DBSK's Mirotic went on. I went really, really nostalgic.

PS: They immediately left Jakarta after performing. SM Entertainment is really unholy in managing these boybands. The boybands just seem to be like their slave dolls or something. I guess some people do sacrifice everything for the temporary glitz and glamour life.

PPS: If you're wondering where my seating was at. I was at the VEEEERRRYY back. I choose to be away from all the Shawols. If you want me to be honest, I'm kind of scared with kpop fans. They never give space to their idols. It's a great place, I have more space, and no sweat. :D

PPPS: I wish for the best for my friend who lost. :( I hope both of us gets to go to Seoul ASAP so we can watch SHINee or stalk them. Amen.

So I went to Jakarta Jam '10 day 2, bands that performed: Forever the Sickest Kids, The Maine, and Hellogoodbye.

It was hell of a treat. I would pay high to watch Hellogoodbye but hey, I can't say no to $30 worth of tickets for 3 bands, ha?

I didn't enjoy FTSK and The Maine, since I don't even listen to them. But the experience of watching Hellogoodbye... I just love knowing genuine music is still being produced. :3 Forrest and Andy is so dorky. <3 I loved it when Andy said, "Just because I play [insert really dorky online game here] for seven hours in front of the computer, doesn't make me a nerd!"

There were more jokes but anyway, the point of this journal wasn't mainly of the concerts.

I have been restless lately. You know, maybe because it has been 4 years I know the person so well that once she lied I directly know. She lied in front of my face, and thought she'd get away with it but NO. I KNOW, and it hurts that I can't say that I know she lied to me. It really hurts. :( It is amazing though, I somehow know it's her without confirming to the rest because of the characteristics she left in an object/subject. Even she said she didn't do it, but I know it's her because its got her work all over it.

I want to end everything, honestly. It's not worth the friendship, how can we actually be friends when everything started off with a lie? There are so many friends out there, but I stress on keeping the relationship in one piece. I can't, and it seemed she already moved on. Maybe she never even considered me as a friend in the first place? I'm confused, my conscious already told me that I should move on because I'm not moving anywhere when I think about her. She's a bad, bad influence.

I've been learning at koreanclass101.com for quite a while now. It's HILARIOUS that I think they blocked my IP because I learned for free, downloading everything. It was alright before, now they updated with new rules. Yeekh, I think I should go to an internet cafe. I'm like 80% complete downloading everything, can't stop now...

On the good side of the news... I LEARNED HOW TO MAKE GIFS!! AAAA. Unfortunately it's not LJ friendly because I can't bother to make gifs worth 30kb.

I love Lee Hong Ki's hair on Love, Love, Love music video. I think majority was opposed to it, but what the heck:


Speaking of Korean stuff, I've been trying to finish You're Beautiful. I started watching around May, but I slacked off and now it's almost October!! I think it's because Korean dramas have almost similar story-line: love triangle, one that's "cool" and REALLY pays attention to the girl ends up not having her. I quite disagree with the life korean dramas captures, as though there's no other alternate ending towards the poor little deary. What happens with the viewers that can easily relate to Shin Woo (You're Beautiful) or Ji Hoo (Boys Before Flowers) or Jun Ha (Wish Upon a Star)? Don't they get their lover? Or just stay friends forever with the girl, even there's a part of them that wants to grab and kiss her?

It's unfair. >:(

That's why I'm much more fond of  Korean or Japanese movies, they seem to present a new perspective. My current favourites: Air Doll and Antique.

 I died reading this:

My 3rd semester just started today. It is amazing that I don't have to wake up early on Monday since my class starts at 12.30 and ends at 2.30. I'm getting used to the laid-back life of uni, even if I know avoiding paper deadlines would be inescapable.

The first thing I did today was going to the dentist - I just had to take advantage of the free service the uni provided. I was pleased that the dentist actually told me my teeth were in their perfect condition. I thought of my mother, remembering that she is fond of ridiculing my teeth, and I immediately texted her after leaving the hospital. She ended up saying, "Well, thanks to your mom that I made you put braces on."

Ha, memories. I remember my front tooth (yea, just one) was very crooked and I had those really dorky braces with headgear back in my first grade. Then I had braces on for 6 months on 8th grade - the dentist was really good, I think that's the reason the dentist I recently came upon complimented my teeth. Usually people that wears braces have to wear them for 2-3 years.


Class was okay, I'm actually frightened about my progress since I lack the spirit to study since 2nd semester. The subjects are easy, believe me, but it's the entire thing of pushing myself to pretend of being interested. Sometimes I just want to go to a global-broadcast and announce that the world is wrong, let's just wait for the apocalypse and lay low and people should stop being materialistic and prioritizing economy status as the leading measure of power.

I have grown to be a bitter, hateable, hateful person. I enjoy solidarity, but sometimes I just wish the society realise they are the ones that mold me into a hermit.

Notice anything missing? If you guessed Panic! at the Disco, then you're right.

I took down my Panic! tower just cause. I just thought I had to tear it down. It was sorta funny cause my little sister helped me out, it took us almost half-an-hour for us to take down the poster that's really on top. I forgot how I actually climbed up to make the tallest Panic! tower I've ever seen.

More polaroids and nonsense pictures, I guess.

I wish my big sister would come up to her senses and tear down her Linkin Park poster. It's really filling out the room. I really hate it how I wake up and there they are, 6 members staring at me. 

My reasoning of tearing it down? The feng-shui didn't feel right, and sometimes I can't breathe seeing how crowded the room was. Not to mention the bedroom is like a pig stide.

the most delicate fingers i have ever seen.

when he wrote on a piece of paper, his fingers were wrapped around the blue pen.

it didn't seem that he was writing, no, the fingers seemed as though they were dancing around against a piece of paper. 

they were just  so beautiful and surreal.

now i see why jae joong likes a person by judging their hands.